2014- Merry Christmas

I've gone crazy;

6.15 on a Sunday morning and after the last few months i thought i would be taking the time to recover and sleep but my body clock is automatic now and I'm finding it difficult to adjust and relax, luckily i am married now because if i hadn't have been I'm sure mike would have left me this year as my annoying radar has been of the scales, I've been jumping on the beds at 5am shouting wake up wake up wake up, every time he has taking a shower I've messed with the water pressure, I've been holding his lunch box to ransom and hiding his glasses at every given opportunity!
today i have to be quite as SAM has two friends sleeping over and the more they are in bed the better it is for us, carnage will happen as when these kinds are together they create a force the size of a tornado tearing through the house. so i decided today to turn the annoying laura off.

 I've taken back to my blog to kill an hour before the gym opens- suppose after four years with never closing and always having something on my mind I underestimated how hard it would be for me to switch off and do absolutely nothing- then i remembered I'm not a nothing kind of person and my days should be filled with the things i have been missing for such a long time, the gym, reading blogging and catching up with mates but what mate is up and awake this early in the morning!.- Rach in Aus is pissed lol.

It's not just work that has kept me busy this year, my wedding took over my life for the first six months, things forever changing and there is always some tiny task to do that holds no importance on the day but you feel you have to do!- its a drag to organise, attending them is awesome and after 7 this year i can say i've seen some beautiful happy people!

 Yesterday was a rare occasion, me and mike went for lunch, this hardly ever happens, he's a meal planner i'm always busy etc etc.... but as we got into TGI's and ordered a mocktail ( sooo Crazy nowadays) he pointed out to me how nice it was to see this one particular family. we sat and watched a 7 year old reading a paper back book, i was amazed with all the tablets and phones and interactive electronics we have this girl took a book out for dinner and it looked like she couldn't put it down, it was called hero and it had a dog on the front-why would i even care about that? she intrigued me.  it's funny how one small moment like that when you are peeking into someones life can make you think about your own. I like books, and i also like to blog- but being a grown up actually sucks, when do you find the spare time to do those things you were so passionate about as a child,  read that book, go to the park with your friends, try that new after school class. As an adult something always comes first, the clothes need washing for Footy- the hoover really needs putting around, i need to get that extra ingredient for dinner, i have to get to the gym because i accidentally ate a whole tub of pringles, and then thought ive ate the pringles might as well eat the chocolate now too. life is passed by with hundreds of insignificant tasks that take you away from the things you enjoy the most. The pressures of paying the bills making sure your children have the best child hood memories come far in front of anything that you find interesting in the slightest.So whilst i have the time and creative writing i do enjoy i will be back blogging- just as and when.
I thought getting older and when Sam grows up a little it would allow some time to take back up those elements of my life i used to be so passionatee about but i was deluded, things have only got busier,

Sam has fitted in soo well and i couldn't be prouder of the friendships he has made, the copes wood football team have a great bond and i am surprised he slotted into that group of friends that have been together for so many years. His goalie training is really paying off he is no longer afraid of much he will jump at peoples feet to get the ball, he will dive freely as high as he can  and he's not afraid of a kick to the head whilst he's fighting to get it. It's taken a while- it was a bit embarrassing to begin with because the team is good they kept the ball up the other end of the pitch and Sam was just hanging like a monkey from the posts swinging around and doing his own little dances to pass the 45 minutes of game time, But then a game happened about 6 weeks ago when i thought to myself who is this kid, he saved some hard shots he fought for the ball he set up a goal and he worked hard in the match, he listened to his coaches and i smiled and watched my sons face be the proudest i've ever seen. Since then there is no going back. He struggles with his confidence and like most of us is afraid of breaking out his comfort zone but i watched him totally love it and now he is always trying to do new things to improve rather than stay safe. He just got picked to train with cov too so from sams perspective Coventry is the best place to live ever! I watch him play with his team now and can see that as teenagers they are going to have so much fun.

Talking of teenagers i had a realisation the other day that i am totally old! I was talking to my neice and she had just come off facetime to her boyfriend, then i said to her which was a total disaster for my own self esteem 'when i was younger and i wanted to speak to my boyfriend, i had to use the house phone and if my brothers were being a pain in the arse they would unplug it from the wall' then it dawned on me...with tears in my eyes, i actually used that line that made my parents seem so old...WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, yes when i was younger no mobile phones had been invented and when they were they didn't even have text message, for months me and friends wondered what the hell is sms, i used to know phone box numbers so i could call them when me and my friends were doing something we shouldn't be and music was played on a portable cd player ( which if i ever got caught taking that into school i would have defiantly been grounded for a lifetime) i had about two songs i had to listen to on repeat because they were bloody expensive to buy and there were no such thing as you tube! A computer had a green start up screen and internet did not exist.  HOW CRAZY IS THAT! just when you thought you would never use that line of when i was younger and then you actually look at what has changed- it's a whole new world! i used to iron my hair with the iron and a towel! now, mobiles and ipods are freely taken everywhere,  hair equipment is carried in bags, to see a person you facetime them - you do have to walk 30 minutes into the next village to do this and the urban dictionary for teenagers has changed since i was at that point in my life! For example;
Pie- a round piece of food?

you would be mistaken-

Pie in a teenagers perspective means ... haha gutted you got pie?

in conclusion of the facts i have before me i am now at the stage of 'sooo old' and i never thought i would reach that point. but yes i have a nearly 7 year old son, I am married, i prefer to sleep than party because i'm knackered from running around to so many activities in the week, i have no idea what is the coolest phone, and the stories that i laugh about from when i was younger and re tell  are over 15 years old. hair grows in places in shouldn't- my son tells me so and i haven't bought a new pair of trainers since my birthday. it's bloody scary how quick time goes!

I am however OK with this because for however old i may be i have another year of experience of this amazing thing called life and i am in a totally great place at the moment- which over the past year has not always been the case. It is so so hard to run a business and a house and sometimes can become a little overwhelming especially if the finical side of things barely covers the bills. Everything i have worked for has been put back in put back in and i think touch wood that this year is the first year where the business can start working for us rather than us working for it. On top of that i found planning a wedding one of the most stressful things iv'e ever had to do and considering the things i have done in my life than that says a hell of a lot. There has been a couple of dark rough months at the start of the year with me not wanting to do business anymore, I've had a few extremely supportive people in my life giving me the options for me to do whatever makes me happy. It's a weird place for me to be in to not know what makes you happy, Iv'e been struggling with alone working as others member of the team work from their home too and not much social aspects of the job. as a social person i've sometimes felt trapped and secluded. Christmas is great people always in and out working  but if i am to continue to do this then i need to get a grip on feeling like that and channel it into something to be productive because it's not christmas 12 months of the year- only 3 . It is hard, but i knew it would be, running and business are quite similar, you hit walls and you have a choice to stop or a choice to carry on. its repetitive, just like running business is actually quite boring, with running i have the music that makes it fun, with business i need the equivalent - maybe a new hobby who knows what the new year holds!
- i actually considered a dog to distract from this solidity but after going to view a beagle dog who wanted to kill me i decided it's perhaps not the best way to distract me from any loneliness. Looking back now it is so funny;
In the car I had the vision of a happy family with a dog  expecting to take it home that day, and i would never feel alone again because i'd have a doggie best mate; but the reality was something quite different  - this dog bit me mike and sam, took off my shoe with it's teeth, howled like i have some telepathic superpower and was torturing him  and then bit his owner,  mikes trying to play with the dog and telling me for 20 minutes he's just playing- the dog was hanging from his arm biting him and ths dude is telling me he is only playing ( i am in the corner with sam on my back crying  and telling the woman we don't want your nasty dog) he then decided when the dogs eyes went red it was time to go. we all left very scratched and biten absolutely laughing our heads off that how wrong our visions had been! Funny how these things you look forward to the most are never what it's cracked up to be but the bits your not too fussed about turn out great.

marriage; it's great- i thought it would be hard but it's not! the wedding was hard but so amazing to have fantastic friends travel so far - built alot of cool memories this year! it was alot harder this time to say goodbye to the Andrews not knowing when the next time will be. - save save save!

i am happily married, we have a fantastic friendship and we seem to work as a team now, this time last year, we were from that, i was terribly busy and mike didn't know what to do to help, this year, he has been recycling alot of boxes every week, doing trips to collect stuff for me, taking sam to the footy and i'm used to his ridiculous eating habits so whilst he is doing that i can prep some of his stuff, as creatures of routing and living together for 18 months now i think we have the organisation of the household running good, last year nearly broke us with no time and extra tasks but this year we have managed well, i am looking forward to see what the future holds for us what ever it may be! and i can be super duper annoying and he can't leave without a divorce mwahahahaha

What a year! reflecting on this manic year is hard- it has been full on and it's difficult to remember what happened where. I'm sure there will be more blogs to come but i hear these little footsteps upstairs. that will be matty and sam because george likes a lat in and will only wake up when the pancake mix is being done so better go do that!

Merry Christmas everyone i hope you enjoy the festive seasons with your family and friends and have the best one ever! I'm missing my leicester friends and family alot and looking forward to catching up now!

MERRRRYYY CHRISTMASSSSS!!!!!!